The Path

Did you think it would be easy?

Did you think you could go your whole life being this developed — thinking about your thinking, adapting, changing, being a person who has a way about themselves — and just coast through? You thought you could see through everything and nothing would happen?

This is your fault. You got somewhere that almost nobody ever gets. And when you got there, there was no map. Not because someone forgot to make one. Because the territory is almost empty. You're not supposed to know how to do this. Nobody is.

Some people call this a crisis.

Why would you choose to call it that? Mine was just a thing that happened. I turned 40. I knew it was coming. I went with it. Honestly, I had a pretty good year.

The people who study this describe it like a root canal. I'm telling you it doesn't have to be that. It's a thing that's happening. You can schedule it. You can prepare for it. You might even enjoy it, if you stop calling it a crisis and start calling it what it is — the part where you arrive somewhere and don't recognize it yet.

You're not breaking down. You're not going through a phase. You're not sick. The frameworks you used to rely on stopped fitting. Therapy helped until it didn't. The books described you but they didn't move you. Some people get here through the body. Some get here through practice. Some get here through thinking so clearly they can see the thinker. It doesn't matter which door you came through. The room is the same.

It's not called being lost.

It's called discovering a place you've never been. You're not supposed to know what to do here. That's why I'm here.

Do I know the way? Of course I do. It's not my way. Researchers wrote it down decades ago. It's in textbooks. I just didn't read the textbooks first — I walked it and found the map afterward. There's only one direction when you're going through this. Forward. It's straightforward. It's just time.

If you need clinical support, get clinical support. This is not that. If clinical support stopped fitting and you don't know why — that's what this is.

How do you know you're not ready?

Look around. Do you see anybody else standing here? It's you. You found this page. You read this far. You're still here. What exactly are you waiting for?

I'm telling you — you're ready. You can stop. You can just be done. You can say that out loud right now and click this button.